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2012-02-14T05:18:00.000-08:00

VAlentine's

2012-02-14T02:36:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to those who are celebrating today, and those who are not :) Valentine's doesnt mean that u can only celebrate it with ur Boyf, Partner, lover, or husband. u can show ur love to ur friends and family too! :)

To all the singles out there, ur gonna find ur true love soon :) enjoy the rest of the day <3

i've this idea for valentine's and im gonna do it next year for my friends :)

Lots of love,
pooiling.

Daily Fix ; #13 ; #foreveralone

2012-02-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

The hardest part of acting like you don't care, is knowing how much you actually do. #ohteenquotes

DAily Fix ; #12

2012-02-11T07:06:00.001-08:00

Blair: Some loves might seem bigger than others, or more complicated, or harder to let go of. But there's a reason they're not meant to be.

self reminder

2012-02-11T06:12:00.000-08:00

Holla! :D

im finally done with the fucken Land Law Assessed Work. ohwell, i've screwed up that assignment, like seriously. fcuk it. ohwell :(

done with the Hectic week, and here comes another one. sigh, three tutorials and IL assignment. the only good news is that, no IL Lecture and tutorial this week :) aikz. wanna go relax with my lawmates after all the works. perhaps this friday? :)

life hasnt been good at all these days. i dunno why :(

ohyahh, gonna do some update about the movies i had watched lately. urm, Viral Factor is good indeed :) Jay chou is <3 :) and yah, although there are some parts are really illogical. but it was funny lol. like how the polices speak in malays and stuff like they ran from pavilion to midvalley in few minutes, that was just too ridiculous. lol. but yah, it was filmed in malaysia, most of the places. :) we all knew the illogical parts as malaysian, but other countries might not know lol. and what else, watched Underworld : Awakening too. ohwell, i din watch the previous underworlds before, so i din really know whats going on in the beginning when the movie started. but yah lol. it was kinda disgusting. like i couldnt take it when the lil girl killed the werewolf. like damn disgusting eww. but, its nice anyway. :)

what else other than works and movies?

planning for a shopping date with the daughter, and farewell for my Bff, and a lot of things to do hehe :)

so much to do, but so lazy to work on them. kill me puhlease :(

pooiling.

How good will it be.

2012-02-06T06:19:00.000-08:00

camwhored when i was doing land assign. cant stand the boredom, and the words :X im so stressed up now, with the incomplete essay, urm, i shall say with the empty page of essay. i havent even start writing a word. fuck. started to get panic already, ahhhhh :(

today is the last day of cny, i wanna go out, wanna gamble, wanna play like how others enjoy the last day of cny. but somehow, i got tied up by the assignment. seriously, if this isnt an assessed work, i wouldnt care much. wtf. :(

i sometimes i really wonder why do i have to torture myself like this. i should have gone in accounting or something that do with math. my life would be much more easier. seriously. at least, accounts and maths are the my strongest subjs. but why, why did i choose law in the first place? dafug :'(

i wonder what's my parents' reaction, if i tell them that i wanna quit law school. lol but yah, im not giving up tho'.

pooiling.

'Best' CNY Ever!

2012-02-03T01:05:00.000-08:00

Hey all. was reading the case, the super long case. but couldnt focus at all. well, been wanting to update my blog w the CNY post, but so many unhappy stuffs happened lately, got no chances lol. so now gotta fill u guys in w my Cny. :)

first of all, gotta thanks those who concerned bout me these days. i feel blessed. thank you for y'all, for listening to me, for comforting me. i feel much more better now :) alright, back to Cny. went back to hometown on Chu Xi Ye. had reunion dinner with the Fan family and gambling sesh at night :) not forget to mention, i got Double Ace's in blackjack! that was a real shock to me :) *wink haha. slept at around 4am. woke up the next morning, and had lunch at granny's place. i love their dishes, so freaking much :3 after that, came back to KL for while, then headed back to hometown lol. had gambling sesh at night too. but got chase out of the house by my granduncle lol. the story goes like this. we were so excited and happy playing 'In Between', and made too much noises. my granduncle who has mental problem, shouted at us and scolded us. all of us dare not to continue playing. then he suddenly walked toward us with his screw driver, and kept poking the table. i got damn scared, and wanted to chao lol. we ran out of the house, but he kept standing at the door, dun let us to go in lol. then we walked around, and kept laughing. cos it was real scary and funny lol. then, all of us got into the cars, and went for supper.

oh yah, i spent my second and third day at Genting, Fourth and fifth day at melaka :) and cousie's birthday party at her house. continue our 'In Between' lol. and this time all the uncles and aunts said "no need to scared already, can make many noises as u guys want" lol. :)

Ps: i think im getting better :) Feb please be nice to me :)

pooiling.

ache like fuck.

2012-02-02T00:07:00.000-08:00

i was a dumbass, no? maybe i should say, i am still a dumbass. ohwell, no one to be blamed for that. i would take all the blames on myself. its funny looking at myself, how i actually thought that i own it, but nope, it doesnt belong to me. L O L it was created out of boredom. funny right?

been through so many things, i seriously got no guts to go through heartbreak anymore, urm, maybe for now. i gotta say im fine, for now. i still miss my dog tho'

my life seems to be controlled by love, by people, by things around me. i dun think it's a good thing lol. definitely its not. ohwell. time to really do something about it. why would my life being controlled by others? :/

only if i can go 'outta sight, outta mind' ..

Ps: period came, got no mood to do anything. #die #fml

pooiling.

never gonna leave this bed ;

2012-02-01T08:07:00.000-08:00

Wake u up in the middle of the night to say,
i will never walk away again,
im never gonna leave this bed..

:'(

2012-01-31T07:31:00.000-08:00

so many bad things happened lately, and i couldnt take it anymore. i declare that im mentally worn out. sorry if u see me with my moodless face. im not gonna be the "me" anymore. this is really killing me, i seriously couldnt take it. why do ppl still can make fun of it. it's live, LIVE! cant believe that u actually said that. i was waiting for your consolation, but not the fucking joke. that's not even funny. how can ppl be this cruel? fuck.

ahhhhhhhh :'(

Ps:onlyificandoanythingtomakehimalive :(

pooiling.

my cutie pie ;

2012-01-31T07:12:00.000-08:00

My Dearest Bii, your sis is missing you here, missing having u around, missing ur barking noise, missing u barking at us for food..

knowing u ran out of house, and ran till so far, i've already knew that u might get into accident. since when did u become like this? since when did u not listening to us? why are u so naughty today? u werent like this! :( seeing u lying in the middle of the road, my heart just couldnt beat anymore. i miss you, i really miss you :'((

i couldnt imagine the pain u suffered the moment u got banged by the cars :( i couldnt imagine how u actually shouted for help, i couldnt imagine how u wanted us to be there to save u. :'(

RIP darling, we will always miss you. having u for 10 years, actually we all know that its time for u to say goodbye. why couldnt u stay abit longer? :(

seriously not used to not having u around us, not used to not hearing u bark when we come home, not used to not calling ur name when we come home. :/

what the fuck is wrong with this year's Cny? so many bad things happened. what a way to end the first month of 2012. FUCK ALL THIS SHITS! :(

Ps: Rest in peace, will be missing you all the times :'(

pooiling.

Daily Fix ; #11

2012-01-31T07:09:00.000-08:00

She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying. #ohteenquotes

when everything flashes in mind ;

2012-01-30T08:08:00.000-08:00

#IWishIDidntDoSoManyStupidThings which is true lol. ohwell

it's 12:10am right now, and the praying ceremony is going on outside. fireworks and firecrackers everywhere. dun think i can sleep well tonight, with all the noises. :/

but even without the noises, i dun think i can sleep well tho'. something has been bothering me these days. i havent been feeling good anyway. nothing much, just not in the mood :(

cant believe that i was actually wanted to finish the E&T, was trying real hard to attempt the questions, and understand the questions. but nope, really dun feel like doing anything. just wanna lay in my bed, and hide under the blanket. :(

Ps: i hate to admit it, but gotta say i cried lol. :'(

pooiling.

Breakeven.

2012-01-28T02:08:00.000-08:00

Hey all! i feel like having someone right now, to listen to me. my feelings have been contradicting, and it's killing me softly deep inside. ohwell. i feel kinda bad, to everything i've done, and everything that i've been thinking. i dunno. ahhhhhhh, this feeling aint good :(

u know what, i always tend to be strong in front of everyone. tend to be calm whenever things happened. tend to tell others that we shouldnt do this or that when the r/s is over. i feel like im bullshitting lol. isnt it? :/

ohwell, i always tell one of my friends, that he shouldnt read the past conversations, but he always dont listen to me. HAHA. and now i am the one who doesnt listen to myself. farney -.-

my conscious mind told me not to do stupid things, be clear of what i want, and be clear of what im actually doing. i gotta be clear of everything. but the unconscious mind just somehow keep telling me that i should do things following my own heart, that i should do things that would make me happy. fuck this shit lah.

im so useless. fucking useless for being a friend like this. :(

Ps: i wish for nothing, but the best for you :)

pooiling.

when im all alone ;

2012-01-21T07:59:00.000-08:00

thought of this song all of sudden, and i used to like it whenever im watching Fierce Wife. i like the rhythm :) it's so smooth and comfy :))

Hmmz, going back to hometown tmr, and it's gonna be bored. thank god i've converted few episodes of Gossip Girl into Ipad, and gonna watch it in the car, or in hometown. lol. Cny mode is so on, whenever i think of gambling with the cousins :) my hands are so itchy right now! cant wait to gambleeeee :p

alright, i haven packed yet, just feel like blogging for a while.

i dunno what else should i say anymore. just feel like, shout out loud. :|

im gonna adapt to it, life still goes on. i gotta be strong :)

Ps: note-to-self, love urself more before u love someone else.

taken using Iphone4 without editing. beautiful sunset @ Putrajaya (:

pooiling.

addiction ;

2012-01-17T06:38:00.001-08:00

typical tuesday

2012-01-17T05:38:00.000-08:00

Tuesday - 17 Jan 2012

Woke up to a swollen eyes this morning, due to the lack of sleep. Just so when i was thinking whether to skip morning lecture, and i got a text message from Daddy Hen after i was done bathing. the best news ever, quickly changed and jump into my comfy bed :) dunno why, i took quite long to actually fall asleep. Wasnt really in the mood, to do anything, including sleeping lol. ohwell, i fell asleep at around 8am i guess? then, woke up at 11am. got ready and went uni for that one and a half hour of lecture. but still thanks for that one and a half hour, for the companies lol. it was just another ordinary day. but what else would be better than that? :)

tweeted during the lecture, and the funny thing was my lawmates thought that the subject matter is one of my friend, and the response i've given was, "NO!" lol and my bffs replied me on twitter, saying that 'if you dont want that someone to be in ur life, u wouldnt have asked that question initially". hmmz, it is kinda true lol.

ohwell, im so fucking lazy to do my tutorial, i guess imma just walk into the classroom with unprepared work, and will just keep quiet throughout the tutorial, seriously no mood to do anything. i just wanna sleep :(

if sleep could help, how i wish i can feel better everytime i woke up from the bed. how i wish everything could disappear after i sleep. lol but that will be just be a miracle.

pooiling.

DAily Fix ; #10

2012-01-17T05:32:00.000-08:00

Everyone wears their own masks. It’s up to ourselves to decide whether it’s the mask or the face behind the mask that matters. - ItsLifeNotes

As expected ;

2012-01-16T07:55:00.000-08:00

Let's tonight be a silent night. I just feel like being alone. I feel blessed to have a friend, where u can really tell everything to him, when ur in a bad mood. he wont mind me throwing him eff words, he'll just listen to me, and give me some advices. i feel much more better everytime i pour everything out to him. i cant believe that, i can be this fucked up in one night lol. Can u imagine that? i think im gonna be emotionally unstable soon. something's wrong with me, and im gonna be insane soon. wtf.

thank you for being there, whenever i need someone to listen to me. thank you for not minding my rude words. thank you very much :) #uknowwhouare

pooiling.

If, and only if ;

2012-01-14T08:29:00.000-08:00

pics taken the other day when i was stuck in the massive jam. lol :p

But anyway, how's ur day? :D

Went shopping w momsy yesterday, since its day off. I always love Friday! :) whenever it comes to Friday, mean that im gonna have a long weekend :) thats pretty good! (Y) so yah, finally used the Topshop Voucher ytd and bought a mustard bodycon skirt, which I rarely buy, because it's mustard lol. it's kinda hard to match with the tops that im having in my wardrobe, and i've no idea which tops can be matched with it. ohwell, i'll figure it out soon lol. maybe i'll buy a chiffon black top just to match with it :) such a lame excuse for myself to shopping. haha :p

and right, finally gotten the Zara dress. have no idea which Zara dress im talking bout? nah, it'll be a secret, not gonna tell u guys! haha. nothing biggie tho'. CNY coming real soon, not really looking forward to it as i grow older. ohwell, i just hate to go back to the hometown and facing my relatives. i would rather stay at home in kl alone. :/

suggested to have a CNY dinner with the lawmates the other day, hope that it wont get flopped. and the malacca trip w the pmo peeps, i just gotta ffk lol. cant make it due to the assignments! :( and what else? speaking of the assignments, i just checked out the due dates, and the questions. lol. imma slacking queen! (Y) people started working on it, but i just started to find out the due dates and all, *wins* sigh, im so fucking lazy, im slacking, procrastinating, pigging! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :((( i can feel that stresses are coming up!

and fyi, its 12:45am right now! lol i shall hit the sack now, and good day ahead tmr!

Ps: remind me to buy the instax mini films! :)

dinner w the bffs on monday! hope everything will be good :)

nights! x

pooiling.

Complicated ;

2012-01-11T23:58:00.000-08:00

Bonjour! (:

I dunno what's wrong with the blogspot, there's only one blogpost can be viewed once i open my blog, anyone tell me what's wrong please? or it's normal? Did blogspot just change their system? :/

Anyway, it was the Year 1 Jan cohort's orientation on tuesday. I cant believe that I was enjoying throughout the orientation. it was quite fun indeed. everything is exactly the same as last time, the games and all. maybe i was kinda hyper. :) welcome the Year 1 Jan Cohort! x

Gambled a lil before C&A lecture today. and i was fucking LUCKY today. Keep losing throughout the blackjack. ohwell, Lost 9 bucks to Henry. it was just too awesome, no? :X next time gotta wear red shirt d lol.

it feels good to be back to uni life. :) despite the fact of waking up early in the morning, me no likey :(

kinda having mood swing these days, especially early in the morning, and during the nights. hmmz, wonder what's wrong w me. :'( and i drive kinda slow these days, when im not in a rush lol. i kinda drive 80km/hr on highway, while listening to the songs :) it feels kinda peace and good lol. its relaxing indeed. :) x

Ps: getting nearer to the answer that i want.

Good day ahead guys! (:

pooiling.